0131 : Menjinak Rindu

Rindu ini makin kuat
Menghempas jiwa menguji tabahnya hati

Hati itu resah
Jiwa itu kalut
Kalbu itu senak dek rindu yang tiba
Menjinak sabar itu sukar
Membelai rasa itu sempit
Rindu ini menggoncang jiwa

Duga itu ada
Namun bila DIA menguji teguhnya rasa
Sabarlah wahai jiwa yang kalut
DIA yang lebih tahu
Tenanglah wahai hati yang resah
Kerna DIA pemilik yang hakiki
Cinta dan kasih ini kurniaNya
Dakapnya dalam selimut kasihMu tuhan
Jaga kami dalam cahaya kasih dan sayangMU

- Naa @ Aara Yara , 8.37 am Putra Heights, 29 Oct 2010 -

[ My Hachi, he is stranded in St Joseph Oilfied, crew boat is there since last nite 8 PM, hmmmm...safety issue is crucial, waves is harsh since last evening...hanya doa yang mampu....DIA yang lebih tahu...DIA mengajar kami erti sabar...InsyaAllah...tabahlah hati... tabahlah jiwa... Terima kasih Allah, mengajar aku erti sayang dalam cara yang terindah...aku percaya padaMu sepenuh jiwa...Engkau akan menjaga dia untukku....]

0130 : I want tis so bad.....

Hmmmm...jap lagi nak pakai baju raya yang aku beli tapi xpakai-pakai lagik pun...teruk kan???...masa nak beli gedik kemain...at last i only wear my simple baju for raya....hahahahahhhaa..ngarut la ko nie Cik Naa oii!!!!...


Jap lagi aku ada important thing @ 5.30 PM...hope that i got it...dah bgtau mak n abah gak...my sis...ekcelli nak buat surprise...kalau dah dpt baru nak bgtau...because this is what they really hope...hmmmm...tapi sebab subuh lagi abah n mak dah call...bgtau good news about my K Teh...Alhamdulillah...then aku pun bgtau about the appoinment....


My Hachi...he cant ctc me...ader communication breakdown...weather not so good la tu...cian dia demam gak...sempat dia tinggalkan message in case he cant ctc me...cepatla balik....hmmmmm...doakan Naa ok...hope this will help me...i have to left what i have right now...alot jugak...have to do this sebelum getting worst...dont want people to keep worried about it...and hope this will expose me to new things in life also...next year i am waiting for another big changes also...

[ Hope everything fine n well....dipermudahkan segalanya...Amin Yarabbalamin....]

0129: PICNIC kat PANGSUN, Hulu Langat...

OFF day after whole week struggle with hectic work...sangat letih yer...And dengan tidoq yang hanya 2 jam aku n my kengkawan pi berpicnic....pagi ujan lebat tu...alahaiiiii....jangan la ujan kat sana yer...almaklumla...all the food is ready marinated by Cik Amy kita yang vogue itu...Dia la event manager, dia la chef, dia jugakla jadik driver kami...hahahahhaahahha....whatever believe me she's good cook!....

Lega masa nak kuar ujan dah benti...our other fren dah tunggu kat tempat yang kami janjikan...semua excited...so konvoi la kami 4 keter ke sana...2 bijik kete merah, satu silver (ehhh cam kenal ek?...) dan satu lagik kaler itam...keter kecik jln dulu....sebabnya ladies first maaaaaa...ehhh bukan...sebab org yang tau pi tempat tu is the drebar of that silver car....hahahhahahahaha...Alhamdulillah tak jam...sampai ja semua excited, chalet kitorang tepi sungai...BBQ place dia pun mengadap sungai...semua pakat kebuloq...nasib la tadi aku sempat beli roti n donut kat SHELL, pastu cik Adie kita bawak donut dgn karipap...



Sampai pakat pulun nyalakan kayu arang...owhhh test jiwa raga betuii..semua dah la pakat lapaq nie...punya la lama baru boleh idupkan...yang pi tulih kat kertas tu "Environmental Friendly" tapi tak pulak tulih "Fire friendly"....alahaaaaaaiiiii...lain kali tulih fire frenly...jenuh betuiii tunggu dia nyala...dari ahli PBSM, Pengakap n Putri Islam....x boleh2 nyala...kecik lengan dok kipas...at last yang berjaya adalah AJK surau...hahahahahahah...agaknya kami semua x dak doa menyalakan kayu arang gamaknya...hahahahahhahaa...





Yang paling best siap siang sotong n ikan terubuk kat sungai ok....kami start mandi lepas kenyang...apa lagi iklan syampoo clear bermula.....cik Amy siap bwk conditioner...hahahahahahah...Happy betuii kanak 2 ribena dapat main ayaq..yang best sebab that place is only us ari tu...so we enjoy it!...

Pastu ada la pistol ayaq...anak kazen Amy punya tertinggal..depa kena balik awal sbb ada kenduri kawen...aku baru ja nak lelap...tetiba kene serang hendap...hampeh...kanak2 ribena (kat ati) kalau tgk badan konpem dah buleh dpt anak ramaiii nie..ciss..hilang stim nak lena...hampeh betuuiii...hahahahahahaha...we enjoy the whole trip...elok kuar dari chalet baru ujan start...Alhamdulillaaaaaaahhhh...we had great day...sampai Putra Heights aku terus pi Giant basuh my luvly boypren....owwwwwhhhhhhhh.....letih tahap maksima...kene painkiller terus lena sampai awal pagi itu pun sebab Encek Hachi call...having great chat with him...he is coming back...but not sure the exact date yet!....

[ Option 1 masih terbuka luas untuk My Hachi...jangan maluuu tau...u just need to let me know...hahahahhahaa..I am smiling, hehehehe...my curious guy terpaksa sabaq banyak with me...muacxxxxxx...]

0128: Bukan yang pertama....

Diri diduga
Diri juga terduga
Pedih itu tetap ada biar ia bukan yang pertama
Resah itu tetap hadir biar ia bukan yang pertama

Hati masih tenang
Biar kekadang tetap terkocak dek rasa
Pilu itu kadang hadir juga biar ia bukan yang pertama
Jiwa itu kadang lemah biar ia bukan yang pertama

Luka tetap berdarah
Biar senyum hadir di bibir
Berat itu tetap ada biar ia bukan yang pertama
Sarat itu menyesak jiwa yang satu biar ia bukan yang pertama

Diri akan terus bertabah
Mencari kekuatan yang kian menjauh
Lemah rasa selimut diri biar ia bukan yang pertama
Goyah itu tetap menggertak rasa biar ia bukan yang pertama

Biar ia bukan yang pertama kalinya hadir .........

- Akuletu Naa @ Aara Yara , 22 October 2010 3.54 pm Putra Heights -

[ Teringat pada seorang kawan....teringat pada silam yang sudah sebati dalam diri...manusia itu lemah...biar pernah diduga sebelumnya, kenapa sakitnya masih panas?...]

0127: Dalam Resah Rindu

DALAM RESAH RINDU

Dalam resah rindu itu
Hati tenang

Dalam resah rindu itu
Hati ingin berbicara, namun semuanya bagai hilang kata

Dalam resah rindu itu
Hati senyum biar sebak itu ada

Dalam resah rindu itu
Hati meminta pada Dia, kabulkan picing-picing doa ini

Dalam resah rindu itu
Hati tahu, hanya Dia Pemilik Langit dan Bumi bisa mengubat

Dalam resah rindu itu
Hati mahu jadi sesuatu disisiNya

- Naa @ Aara Yara, 3.11 am 22 October 2010 @ Putra Heights -

[ new updates on Aara Yara...enjoy readings guys... ]

0126: Mual?..Melugai?...Lantak koranglaaaaaa......

CAUTION: Posting ini bakal memualkan tali perut dan usus korang...bukan sedikit...tapi pasti banyaK!...soooooo..kalau rasa anda mempunyai simptom2 yang begitu...lebih baik tumpukan pada posting lain sebelum segala kaler muntah yang terburai dari mulut yang comel!..jangan cakap x bagitau...dah highlight dah habaq dah nie...

OK...first...sebab blog nier dah macam weather newcaster punya blog (bak kata CerriBerri yang cute ituee...), cuaca selepas Typhoon Megi...cuaca sangat la warm n basah2 gitu kat Putra Heights...best sebab tiap ari ader ujan..xderla aku dok ngomel panas ja...(panas tu bukan sebab banyak dosa ka Cik Naa???...tetiba terbayang muka siku biru yang hamsap tue...owhhhh tidakkkkk...nyebuk jer siku biru nie aihhhh). Ok mulakan hari dengan mencari gaduh dengan perut aku...bangun tidoq aku pi bantai mkn roti cicah dengan ayaq oren.....dok setengah jam....owhhhh...pedihnya perut...tolonnnn....petang sebelum start kejer dia pi bantai lak makan kepok lekor cicah sambal dia la....dengan nasik lemak yang buleh tahan gak pedasnya...memang cari pasal...lupa lak tu bwk ubat....alahaaaaaiiiiii....ingat ka buleh la balik awai...sekali aku kene stay back buat report n lodge complaints lagiks....eeeeeiiii nak muntah!!!...tolonglaaaaaaaa...jangan ko nyusahkan idup aku.....ok la...aku still buatla...merungut2 pun kene wat kejer kan???...kang makan gajik buta pulak....tengah sedap paler nie dok mereka ayat2 power...my Hachi pulak call...awainya malam nie....ehekssss...(x sebut tak suka okeiiii...)

Sambil tangan dok bekerja keras dengan complaint mulut dok bersembang...tangan sebelah pegang hp..sebelah dok kerja keras menaip email segala...sambil tue sempat pulak dok melayan depa2 yang tak berenti dok tanya itu ini...multi task...dalam aku dok membebel about kene lodge complaint...tetiba pulakkk....Encek Hachi yang kat HP nie pun nak lodge complaint jugak.....Alahaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...awatla hidup aku penuh dengan orang yang kuat complaint 2-3 menjak nie....patutkah aku mandi bunga lepas ini???...lebih practical pakai ja Aura Seri...perghhh dapat gak ber"Aura" cam pengasas dia yang cun tue...eheksss...berangan la ko Cik Naa oiiiii...



Ok...let us back to the complaint lodged by Encek Hachi....
As Typhoon have passed by my place and me was in "safe" condition which is mentally n physically. This Typhoon has creates syukur to myself at least i am still alive eventhough i am very scared ekcelli...takut gak kalau mati...kang tak dapat la i jumpa u yanggg ooiiiii...hmmmm due to that i am also thankful to u for ur willing to refund back the jade to the owner...and i want to requests you to bring me together so that i can just talk to him eyes to eyes contact....(*erkkkk...aku telan ayaq liuq...what after this???...shhhh...that jade is ekcelli my birthday present from my ex....n we are still be good fren...this guy means a lot to me...i know korang feel silly aite....???...but the truth is yes...this guy have helps me alot in mencari myself...make me berdiri atas kaki sendiri...with him..i get back to my family...n we break off bukan sebab dia tapi sebab aku yang mintak...sebab aku rasa diri aku tak cukup kuat...sebab aku xdapat nak tipu diri aku yang dia makin susah masa aku ada kat sisi dia...dan aku mintak pada Allah tunjukkan jalan terbaik untuk aku...maka berakhirlah...dan dia kini makin ok...aku masih di situ sbg best fren...walaupun aku kerap create alasan untuk jumpa lepas break...i loves him a lot...before la..now...my luv is only for my Hachi...). I want to requests from my luv not to see him again, no matter any reasons...no matter what. And if something happen to u or any problem that happen to u in future i'll find my way to help and assist you. And if u want to see him you can only see him with me around...AM I CLEAR ENUFF?..(Gulp...uikssss tetiba dia kuar that stmt)...Not because i dont trust u...but since that typhoon i am realize that i am going to work hard to get u. For me n myself!..(Erk!!!!)...And i am not going to lose u by any means...(errkkkkk......dia menses ker???...)

-Yanggg...dont forget my syarat?...u can only be with me after u fulfill that syarat...even i know i scared hilang u that nite..i still remember that i don't compromise with my 3 syarat with u...(one of it is the ROV certs...)

-Yup i am clearly remember it...and for the second syarat...i will discuss further when i see u. Not very convenient to talk over the phone.



And after my report he keeps calling me...alahaiiii...dah la aku tengah nak kaunselling kawan aku Tara...alaaaaa...minah yang bahasa Melayu dia lucah walaupun dia dok pasan bahasa Melayu dia kononnya grade A...hmmmm...at last selepas aku bagitau...that she really need someone to talk, then baru la...dia bagi aku bernapas sikit....and i am really appreciates the moment that i have with Tara. She need somebody to release her risau n segala. At last i put smiles on her face....Alhamdulillah...hug her so that she have strength to front her problem....even aku marah dia teruk sebenarnya tadi...hahahahahahahhaha..buleh???...marah sebab aku rasa apa dia buat tu worst...sebab she need to understand that someone, her gud fren like me..(pasan!), family semua care about her....hope the good things for her...

[ hmmm at last ari nie dapat MMS from my Hachi...fresh from their ship...nice ek????....Gunung Kinabalu...n the sunset at their project....tq so much...sila muntah banyak2 yer....hahahahahahha.... mesti korang pening kan???....ngaku jer laaaaaaaaa....]

0125: Alhamdulillah...terima kasih atas keselamatan ini...

Semalam...sangat-sangat risau...tapi entah kenapa yakin dia akan selamat itu juga kuat dalam diri...1 whole day without any updates from him...gi kejer cam malas...macam orang xder perasaan...i still finish my task....i have to be tough aite??...the work make me forget my risau....

Balik jer...baru terasa sgt penat...but i cant sleep...asyik tingat mcm2 pasal dia...issssshhhhh...pukul 3 lebih tetiba dia online....communication breakdown tadi...owhhhhhhh...Alhamdulillah!...can't stop smilling....

-Yanggg...tanya sikit...semalam tu betul ker?...u no need to do that...

Anak Tok Mad senyum...dah agak dah this curious guy will ask...

-Betul la...i will do it not because anyone paksa or terpaksa...i told u why...don't try to ubah my decision yer yannggg...

This curious guy still x puas ati...jenuh aiiihhh...whatever it is i will still do it...FULL STOP...jangan tanya lagi yer My Hachi!...

Tq my good frens, keep calming myself yang muka toya tak ingat semalam....hahahahahahahha. Now...can't wait for him to come back...Yanggg jangan lupa ur janji ok....

-Mamak...ABC satu...itu jagung kasi kuranggg wokeyyyyy!!!!

Heheheheheh...yang nie tetap kurang yer yanggg...not open for discussion!..ahahahahahhaa...sure bengang....

[ Sorry yer readers sekelian, terpaksa jadi weather broadcaster...owh....apa pun now this Thyphoon Megi katanya akan hit China after this...Moga tak la teruk sangat kan...mesti diorang tengah risau. Can see what happen to Phillippines...they have prepared tapi tu la...korang baca la sendiri ek...nak sambung rest...byk kejer lately...]

0124: Hanya padaMu aku berserah, Jaga dia...Typhoon Megi continues to move towards South China Sea

Tangan bergetar ketika menulis posting ini....bukan simpati yang kupinta di sini. Bukan juga untuk menunjuk-nunjuk...berita yang dia sampaikan sangat menggetar hati...Ya Allah...yang mampu hanya doa. Typhoon Megi kini masih rakus, kini kembali!..menuju Laut China Selatan. Dan updates terbaru, semakin hampir Sabah...The winds is getting rough...and they are still hammering the jacket..10 survivors still on that jacket...mempertaruh nyawa....

I just talked to him...short one...the place is very quiet...everyone is quieing for the phone to call the wife, family n luv ones....everyone is worries...so does me...i cried alot tonite....cant do anything just can pray for his safety...the whole ship safety no matter who there are...Hanya doa dan Yaasin untuk mereka. Semoga keselamatan mereka dijaga Yang Maha Kuasa. Betapa kerdilnya diri.

Aku tak sangka taufan ini akan kembali. Hanya selepas my sayang tiba-tiba bagitahu...

-Yanggg, we are preparing to leave this place soon. Pray for my safety Yanggg. Promise me jangan tinggal Solat.

-Yanggg, dont tell me the Typhoon come back?

*teringat one updates on Super Typhoon will hit South China Sea.

-Yup, it is moving towards here now. We are preparing to leave. Within an hour plus. Still hammering the Jacket. Pray for me. Dont cry sayang. I am coming back for you...

Tanganku bergetar, where ahould i begin?...i start to find the link on PAGASA...dunno where i put it...Ya Allah...he saw me crying on the webcam. Almost 5 minutes plus struggling. My heart pumping so hard. Ya Allah...when i got the link....the updates really surprised me. i lost my words...all i have is only tears....





I know he is scared....but he be tough for me...hoping me not to stop praying...We chat sampai Azan Subuh kat sini. Aku nangis non stop. This is his life. And me have to be tough as him. Hanya doa dan bacaan Yaasin yang aku mampu untuk dia. Tanda kasih aku padanya. Aku harus kuat. Aku harus minta pada Yang Kuasa. Hanya dia yang mampu menjaga kesayanganku. Hanya dia yang mampu pertemukan kami lagi. Hanya dia yang tahu kkasih dan sayang yang hadir ini jujur. Hanya Dia yang ku harap sepenuh jiwaku menjaga Penenang Jiwaku. Dia hadir ketika aku hilang arah. Ketika aku perlu penunjuk arah, meminpin aku memadam dendam yang beraja dihati. Itu dia...sayangku.

Ya Allah...syukur atas kasih ini, kami meminta belasMu untuk pertemukan kami lagi. Menyatukan kami dalam dakapan kasihMu Ya Allah. Dia sayangku. Aku harus redha apa jua selepas ini. Ada amanah yang dia tinggalkan padaku. Berat!, namun doaku kudus...Jangan apa-apa terjadi padanya. Aku tahu aku tak mampu menunaikan amanah berat itu.

Buat insan yang aku sayang...kembali sayanggg... dengan selamat sempurnakan diriku yang kekurangan ini....Pulang sayanggg...demi kurnia KasihNya pada kita....

Wahai Si Penenang jiwa
Paut aku sayang...
Paut aku dalam suka dan duka kamu...
Paut aku, kerna engkau adalah separuh dari diriku
Paut aku dalam kasihNya.
Kerna Dia akan abadikan untuk engkau dan aku...
Hanya DIA yang kita ada...
Kita yakinkan janjiNya, demi kurnia kasih ini...
-Naa @ Aara Yara -19 October 2010, 6.00 AM, Putra Heights -

-InsyaAllah abang balik sayanggg...doa untuk abang. ALLAH itu ada....Jangan nangis. Abang balik...


[ Tadi he called me again...this time from the Celcom line, line x baper clear, can hear the winds...n line disconnect.......trying so hard not to cry....i am scared....kerdilnya rasa diri bila diri x mampu melakukan apa-apa untuknya....Ya Allah...jaga dia untukku...Amin Yarabbalamin..]

0123: Pagi yang hujan, Typhoon Megi weakens after landfall

Alhamdulillah...azan subuh pagi ni disambut dengan angin yang kuat n ujan...actually i woke up around 3 plus...after tight sleep...too tired last nite after coming back from umah pak su...tired sebab hati sgt risaukan my Hachi...keep thinking of his safety...berderau jap darah masa dengar angin kuat pagi nie...

Bangun jer terus online n checking on email n weather broadcast...no email from him...could be busy..hmmm...no missed call on my phone as well...i keep googling for the Typhoon updates....and at 3.50 am he online...we have long chat untill 4.00 am plus...untill he need to go back to his work again...

-Laut tenang hari ni yanggg, jangan risau. Jacket dah pasang now they are already start hammering it.

Owhhh...sangat lega. And at 5 am..new updates...the Typhoon change it path...Ya Allah..syukur walaupun sebenarnya tetap x best...sebabnya it could hit Phillipines dgn teruk. Tapi tak jugak, semua expect this one could be Super Typhoon...but then Allah lebih Mengetahui...the Typhoon moves slow down...n start to move back to sea...apa pun it still landed at Isabella, Phillipines. One was found dead due to it. I still can't sleep...so masak mihun goreng for breakfast...after subuh then sambung chat with him. He already waiting for me...we have long chat till morning...then baru sambung tido balik. Today i need to work...Terima Kasih Ya Allah, menjaga dia....Alhamdulillah juga no breakdown on our communication...Syukur Alhamdulillah....

***Updates on tis Typhoon***


MANILA, Philippines (UPDATE 5) - Supertyphoon Juan (international codename: Megi) has weakened after making landfall in Divilacan Peak in Isabela province before noon Monday, weather bureau PAGASA said.

A report on the PAGASA website said Juan made landfall at Sierra Madre Mt. Estagno Point at Divilacan Peak at 11:25 a.m.

As of 2 p.m., Juan was located 40 kilometers south southeast of Tuguegarao City with maximum sustained winds of 190 kph near the center and gusts of up to 225 kph.

PAGASA senior weather forecaster Robert Sawi earlier warned that "Ondoy-like" rains could affect parts of Northern Luzon as the typhoon slows down. "As it gets slower, it becomes more dangerous for affected areas," he said in a press briefing.

He also noted that the typhoon could shift south and affect Pangasinan.

He also warned of possible landslides in the Cordillera Administrative Region and Mountain Province due to heavy rains brought by Juan.

The province of Isabela, meanwhile, declared a state of calamity due to the onslaught of the typhoon Juan.

Public Storm Warning Signal No.4 has been hoisted in Cagayan, Isabela, Kalinga, Mountain Province and Ifugao; while Signal No. 3 in Batanes, Calayan, Babuyan Group of Islands, Apayao, Benguet, Quirino, Nueva Vizcaya and Northern Aurora.

"This is the highest storm warning signal we can raise. Storm Signal No. 4 is 185 kph and above and we expect to feel that in the next 12 hours," Sawi told radio dzMM in an interview.

He said he expects the storm to exit the country via Ilocos Sur and will be out of the Philippine area of responsibility by Tuesday evening.

Storm Signal No. 2 was hoisted in Ilocos Norte, Ilocos Sur, Abra, La Union, Rest of Aurora, Pangasinan, Tarlac, Nueva Ecija and Polillio Island while Storm Signal No. 1 was hoisted in Metro Manila, Cavite, Bulacan, Pampanga, Bataan, Zambales, Northern Quezon, Rizal, Laguna and Batangas.

0122: They are still @ St Joseph Battlefield (Oilfield)

7.45 pm...just YM with him....they are still busy there...still @ the oilfield....he is still calm...Cik Az...u right the offshore man is tough...their job trained them to be so tough....

Alhamdulillah, at last i have updates from him, walau sekejap. He is busy. They need to finish that project. Everyone is working hard on it. They are really survivor...weather broadcast updates that the sea condition is rough n to be very rough...n wave heights expected from 3 to 4.5 meters plus...They have been updated about that already....everyone been acknowledged about that...

I am still praying for the safety...so does him...Take care sayanggg...Ya Allah jaga dia untukku...Amin Yarabbalamin.

Luv,
Naa
Umah Pak Su still